heh. I bet you were wondering why I chose the name "holloweyed". basically, it's an anime character I've created, whose name is Noroi-Inu. the whole term I call her is hollow-eyed halfbreed. there is a BIG long reason behind this, but...I don't have the room or time to tell the whole story.
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have you ever noticed that no matter what you say or do, a parent always says you're wrong. examples in my house...
"look mum! I passed the math mcas!"
"it's says you need improvement."
"mum, you know I barely passed. you should be glad I managed to get that."
"that doesn't matter. that grade is crap."
...
"you got a c in spanish?"
"mum, you know I've been doing badly in spanish all year."
"you're just not trying."
"yes, I am."
"well apparently not because you have a c."
...
"you have a c in english?"
"it was the grammar. I'm horrible at grammar."
"that's no excuse. do better."
...
"how did you get such a bad grade in art?!"
"mum, I switched into art 2 weeks late. you know that."
"how does that explain these missing assignments!?"
"I didn't have enough time to finish all the assignments I missed. I had to put together my entire sketchbook."
"how does that have anything to do with it?! that's no excuse!"
and now of course, staying at a hotel is utterly rediculous. and there one and only reason...
"you're too young."
yes. that was their only reason. I'm too young, so I'm too immature. if someone is young, does that neccessarily mean their immature?
am I immature?
I honestly don't think so. I do all my work, though I admit I do do it at the last minute a lot. but I'm a horrible procrastinator, I seriously can't help it. and they are exacttly the same with that. I may not do the chores without being told. but they don't do anything about it either.
almost at least twice a week now, I'm home by myself. I have to make my own meal, walk the dogs and yet they say I'm not mature. if they're never home anyways, what's the difference if I stay at a hotel? when I cook dinners on friday and clear, clean and set the table and sit down to eat...they pick up their plates and eat in the other room.
the only question that I wanted to know was...
how am I immature?
...they wouldn't answer. the best they gave me was from the way I was behaving then. I was crying.
but it was because they were yelling and screaming at me. how am I supposed to act? they said I wouldn't accept the answer, but that's not true. if they answered how I was immature, I would have accepted the answer.
but they never did. they would only say when I asked why, "you're too young." if I was 18, they said they would let me go. I can't change the fact that I'm not 18. does that make me any less mature? they even said next year, WHEN I'D HAVE A JOB AND COULD DRIVE, that they still wouldn't let me stay at the hotel.
but how mature are they? dad wouldn't let me speak. he just kept shaking his head. I can't even count how many times he said, "I don't care."
what if I do?
how mature are your parents when they will no longer listen to a question? when they threaten to literally "kick my butt" (said by dad) if I don't leave the room?
now if I sound immature from ranting about this, I appologize. I don't mean to. but they made me so upset!
I was trying to get them to listen but they woouldn't! it's as if everything a child says to their parents is utterly ridiculous.
but how do they know if it's ridiculous...when they won't listen?
tell me...
written at 10:57 a.m. on 2006-03-19
